Let's see if I can do this in 10 minutes -
The day started early with the dog having a fit on the kitchen floor, terrifying daughter who screamed for us. We rushed to her in the sitting room (which has the stairs in it) while she told us what was happening the dog trotted in looking completely normal. I heard the hideous knocking sound he was making on the kitchen floor, but only she saw and then described to us. He recovered on his own. There were no other symptoms except the falling and shaking. He has been fine since (I sought advice).
Had stressful time trying to sort out travel for next week to Royal Brompton and Harefield hospital in Kensington for daughter's possibly last outpatients appt in the paediatric cardiac care clinic. Will probably be the normal (grown up clinic) next time. She is 16 (what!!) in April. Does The FW come too, possibly not as it is a long day with travel etc. I am scared of London but will do my best.
Had long phone chats with Best Friend, we have decided to try and spend more time with our girls this year. I think she has realised what has happened. The new boy/man friend relationship is good and she will still take every opportunity to see him etc but maybe has realised that there are other people in the universe.
I think she is arranging a 'street photography' mini course for the girls, which we will have to accompany them on (this is in Soho). She is very London savvy so I can relax and we will laugh a lot and embarrass our daughters.
More financial worries ie car tax and mot. I have to let him deal with it. I have to.
Am trying not to be stressed about various things, house not being cleaned (by me) am very aware of my failings at this, it bothers me and yet this house is too big for me to deal with. I have too many crochet and sewing projects on the go and end up not doing any of them and wasting another day.
Getting fed up with cooking, being burnt twice (once on face) by spitting fat.
Being very obvious that I am not coping, not being the efficient mum/housewife I used to be, it is very noticeable. I don't like it.
The stress on the news about the Baccalaureate being abandoned for GCSEs. This is what our girls are doing and have had to give up their treasured favourite subjects to do it. Dance for H and Art for my girl. No wonder they can't wait to leave school and cannot be persuaded (by the school) to stay on for Sixth Form.
I have to go out and shop again tomorrow. Despite doing online shop (which I mistakenly put on the cleared credit card that I had balance transferred only 10 days ago bugger) we still need cat litter and fresh food for the weekend. I don't want to go out. It is too much effort. And too much money. I am trying to stay in budget despite the 'Vera Legacy'. I must not blow it.
Is this garbled? Choppy? I am sorry if it is, but this is how my brain is working.
I never ask about you do I? How are you, you look well, I like your top, is it new?
PS We are keeping a good eye on Alfie, he seems as perky as ever. Bless his smelly little bod.